Endless woes

Gawd, it can't get worse than this. The dreaded nightmarish situation: the final paper for RELSFOR is due BEFORE its deadline. Now, we had always believed, as the teacher had stated earlier, the stuff was due 28, 2 days or so before the course card. All of a sudden, Lala, my groupmate calls me to announce the deadline has magically changed to **drum-roll, plz** the NEXT day.

So, all night I worked on the RELSFOR paper, of course I took generous breaks cruising the Information SuperHighway :P

God, I still have SO much to study. There are the 2 final exams on Tuesday. Thank God, Monday is a holiday (Ninoy Aquino Day). I MUST FINISH BIOCHEMISTRY AND PARASITOLOGY TODAY. The next two days should only be for review. There are still many papers to pass. Looks like I'm gonna be glued to my computer for the next week.

After a hellish all-nighter (a part of which I spent reading Rachelle's blog), it turns out the groupmate who was supposed to submit can't anymore coz his grandpa is in the hospital. Now, all I can hope is that the prof. allows a late submission.



Moving on, Rachelle's blog
was an eye-opening experience. Although some of the entries were very very bitter, I must say I admire her for believing in herself so much, perhaps what others might term "arrogant". I found some of her entries super amusing, some outright shocking and others totally mind-boggling.

But, I'm **THE** most apolitical person one can become. I NEVER took sides, in fact i tried to stay away from the controversy. Yes, I was curious about why Nissy totally separted herself from LSDS etc...That's because I'm naturally inquisitive about people's interactions with each other, from the psychological perspective, that is.

What was MOST shocking about Rachelle's blog was that she OPENLY mentioned ALL her grievances against the other parties. The blog was generously peppered with some very colorful language hehe... She's A COOL GAL...

Well, why do I call it an eye-opening experience? Maybe, it's because I realized I was not the only one that has felt wronged.

I was actually very hurt by some of the stuff I heard about myself coming from the Batcave. What baffles and perhaps angers me as well, is why can't people just confront me and ask instead, rather than jumping to assumptive conclusions and then maligning me.

Case in point: When I "failed" to attend a Publicity meeting.

Perceived scenario: That I texted VP-Publicity that I couldn't make it to the meeting but i was seen bumming around somewhere around the canteen area. i.e. I was LYING to avoid attending the meeting.

ACTUAL scenario: I receive a text to attend the meeting just a short while before the meeting. Apparently, the schedules weren't consulted but it's ok. I have a RELSFOR class 1140-1240: the time of the meeting. I still remember it was a wednesday right before U Break. So, I reply politely that I have a class and I would be happy to meet her later and what time would be ok with her. I go to class after that.

Since the class is during lunch time and I expect to be busy during u break, notwithstanding the fact that I seldom have breakfast in the mornings. So, if I had been "spotted" elsewhere, i was probably rushing to class and buying stuff to eat. Yes, I'm a habitual late-comer to that class...i myt have been late. This doesn't mean I absented myself nor was I under an OBLIGATION to absent myself to an academic class to attend a PUBLICITY meeting.

Now, it is weeks and weeks later that I find out through Vic about this grivence coming from the VP-Publicity. Now, PLLLLLLLZZZZZZZZ, if she had only SPOKEN to me earlier, the matter would have been CLARIFIED. But apparently, people like to talk behind people's backs. She probably wanted me to find this shit through OTHER people. Moreover, I told her the other times I was free..and I never ever heard from her again. She HAS my number and she NEVER made an effort to contact me again.

Her ENTIRE judgement of me came from one time I failed to show up at a meeting...WOW

Well, all I must say is that people need to communicate more to avoid NEEDLESS misunderstandings.

I must emphasize what a big shocker it was when Vic talked to me about the VP-Publicity's "problems" with me. Oh well... life is full of surprises...

That's it for now.......

oh, isn't my cat a cutie?

Gluttonous urges

I have an urge to raid the kitchen and eat like there's no tomorrow. And then become like this guy :P (w/ all respect to plus-sized people)

Buying online has turned out to be so addictive... Finally, RELSFOR is over: It took an all-nighter to compile everything from all the groupmates and finally send them to the lawyer who is supposed to accomplish the logsheets for us.

Then, I come across this entry from Philip. I was trying to kill time on ebay looking for a discman and on blogspot.com trying to find other people with my name. They're only a handful in the world, you see. Anyways, so I come across this entry. Before I read the blog author, I saw the word jollibee. I knew what it was going to be about.

Anything that hurts me doesn't deserve to be in the realm of my thinking. That might classify as escapist thinking but I really don't like to dwell on negative experiences.

Now I know why, when I was in Batcave, he left upon seeing me talking to Kim. The comment that was made wasn't designed to hurt him but his reaction was over the top and disproportionate. Anything that hurts me doesn't deserve to be in the realm of my thinking. That might classify as escapist thinking but I really don't like to dwell on negative experiences.

But whatever happened, happened for good. I still think he's a nice guy and the whole episode was unfortunate. But I can't pretend that nothing happened and I wasn't hurt.

Moving on, I skipped PHILHIS today. A morning class is always such a struggle to attend. FangFang, a very nice groupmate of mine told me about the very significant happenings (grade calculation hehe :)

My image in the mirror this morning frankly scared me. My cheeks are drooping from all the reckless eating that's been going out for the couple of WEEKS...It's not a surprise: Indulgence in food is a good way of countering stress, they say... so it's not entirely a surprise given it's final exam week in a week's time :(

I'm uber excited to go to the International Book Fair by GOODWILL bookstore. I STILL don't have the passes. I hope that won't entail a purchase from their store. I only found out about this huge event from the passes that I saw with Mayumi (the little, sweet girl I tutor).

This really brings back memories of more than 10 years ago when we, as a family would go to this international book fair in suburban Cairo. It would be the mega event of the year... or was it held bi-annually? And INVARIABLY, on our way home, my dad would be complaining about the Pakistan stall. Perhaps, the deeply patriotic man that he is, he wanted to see more worthwhile stuff that would make the mall stand out in the myriad of stalls of countries from all over the world.

Well, that's about it for now. I need to study Parasitology. Those vermiform creatures enthrall me :P (they're not all vermiform by the way)

.	vermiform - resembling a worm; long and thin and cylindrical worm-shaped formed - having or given a form or shape

from www.TheFreeDictionary.com